Get Bent!

WARNING DARK SPOT POST:

I have said this a thousand times! Chicks are fucking evil. Women, girls, females, whatever you want to call them! The one woman in my life I have the most respect for is, and always will be my grandmother. I have found her out of all the women who have ever entered my life to be the least pain in the ass. (Both grandmas I should say) I talk a lot about the concept of being a "plan B." So, apparently everyone (but Josa) has one of these. Then along comes the awkward situation where you find yourself in none other than the plan B spot! AGAIN! Whew i thought i would never end up back in this spot. not that a part of me doesn't realize this is where I am standing, but a part of me wishes and hopes i am not! Schucks folks, I guess I resume my reluctant hesitant lifestyle where I just focus on me, Zoey, and the mountain of projects that lay before me. Staying busy gives me an easy out, an excuse, and most of all a safe place to just be. In this safe place i get to just be me, and do the wacky things i do without worrying about one single thing. I remember exactly what it feels like to get your heart broken, and the moment i start to feel even an ounce of that pain again, I'm out! Fucking peace, I cant and WONT do this again. I'm not saying that it will NEVER happen again, but for the time being, there isn't a chick in the world who could bring me down! At this point in my life, i just cant imagine being broken and weepy. Not because that's "weak" or anything of the sort, but because I don't have time for it! I don't have time to mope around or worry about my "feelings" or someone Else's!

So this is more of a vent post than anything else. I have found some relief in writing it all out and watching it play out letter by letter. I wonder why i don't do this more often. I used to have an email pal back in the day that i would tell my darkest secrets to (Hi if you're reading), but time changes things, people get older and busy, and i am not exempt from that. Sure does feel nice to just write it out and let it be. Even if i delete this post before publishing it, its gone. Emotions for me are like big rocks i keep in my pocket. They weigh me down and make me move slower. I GOTS to keep going, keep moving, keep fighting, keep doing what I do to survive. I need sleep, water, redbull, and Z. Those are my essentials! So now that i have gotten this out, I suppose i should apologize for the negative vibes I've been spewing out all over Pueblo today! I hate being that person! I am allowed though to have those moments. I am thankful i have super fucking awesome friends who just deal with me, let me vent, and tell me I'm not being irrational or grumpy! So thanks to you if you re reading this for helping me get some of those big rocks out of my pocket today! Tomorrow is a brand new day, and i think if i get to sleep at a decent hour......ill be freaking ready! So goodnight to you readers, or would be readers if i ever actually told anyone this existed! Sometimes its best to be anonymous! But that's just not me! so goodnight moon, goodnight you......

Spray tans and politicians

Personal opinion here: I think if you don't want to look like a total "D-Bag" you shouldn't spray tan! And who does this guy Boehner think he is?! He cries NON STOP so i hope he tans at a waterproof salon because he would look silly with white lines running down his face! Every time i see this man i think about that dang button that has his face on it, crying saying "We'll give you something to cry about! -The 99%" And it just makes me laugh! I have a whole bunch of those buttons so they are everywhere i go! Awkwardly enough, his face is orange in that too. I don't think the pun was intended because its SEIU colors but it still just cracks me up! I am also pleased to see Hillary Clinton wearing a head band! It looked much nicer than her normal hair style, but gosh she looked so tired! I think maybe we should start a nap time in DC. Lord knows when i was there i needed it! I can always use a good nap though! MAYBE (that's in caps because i just got really excited!!!) we can institute nap time for EVERYONE! aside from lunch hour! That's when grown ups have to pay bills and do grownup things! Like 2pm is nap time nation wide! Sheesh i should write Hillary Clinton and tell her this! She has more pull with the big man than i do! That is all for now....nap time

Wow!

I totally forgot what the name of my blog was! Now why on earth would i choose Chicken Mole? I was going through some phase in my life in 2008, so here i sit 4 years later still writing about the same things. I have a progressive blog training tomorrow so i figured i would get my good ol blog up and running again. What to talk about......There are tons of things going on in my life at the current moment. I will be leaving for Las Vegas NV on Sunday and staying till Thursday, leaving there to head to Los Angelas CA and returning the following Sunday! Thats a long time to be away but Z is in good hands :) I will be doing the train the trainer program for Steweards in Action through AFSCME.

Life is pretty mundane these days! It has its moments where it is totally awesome, but really getting older and growing up isnt all its cracked up to be. I live in a constant state of sleepyness! I just troll around the earth with a red bull and a yawn! REally though i take lots of photos so its all good! Things in my life are going exactly the way i want them to be going! Love life is non exisistent, but i have a pretty neat little social life and a great group of friends! Who needs love anyway??? Ill get back to that subject later! For now thats the update.....

Tantrums

Sometimes i think i am the only adult on the planet that had little mini tantrums! i swear i throw things and curse and just wanna stomp my foot cross my arms and sit down and say "humpf!" seriously though i have been super agitated lately and the only medicine is my iphone or zoey. other than that im like glaring at people and subconciously wishing they would fall on their butts!

on another note! i am ready for election day! i have reviewed the ballot and am ready to make my vote count! considering how oldschool my grams is she actually voted for Barak! sometimes she uses the N word but apparently she doesnt really mean it! Anywho im going shopping for a halloween costume tommorrow! wish me luck!

hasta

There is hope....

Today i saw on Comcast.net where the fattest man on earth got married! Yes ma'am in Montery Mexico they wheeled this giant asshole out on his bed (noteworthy his bed was all decked to the nine's) and took his ass on the flat bed of an eighteen wheeler to the church. Now if this man bags himself a chick then i think there is hope for the rest of the world........I think thats pretty neat though all joking aside. People went all out to see this dude get married. people are pretty neat and i think sometimes we dont give humanity the credit it deserves. and that is ALL the optimisum i can muster up for this dreary Monday morning. Peace

Another year and one for the books!

As all of my friends have noted, I have just had another birthday. Let me tell ya, 27 was a good one! What a wonderful feeling to have all of your closest friends under one roof just celebrating your life for another year. Its an incredible feeling! The night started off pretty mellow, my parents suprised me with roses and bought me a beer. After hours of remaining stationary at my table I finally moved and decided (under cohersion i think) to go play DDR. Anyone who has seen Grandma's Boy knows what DDR is! I have played that game all of once in my 27 years of life and being drunk didnt help me brush up on my skills! In fact i couldnt figure the damn thing out! From there we decided to hit the fooseball table. It took all of the time it takes to get bucked off an angry bull (8 seconds) for me to get anally penetrated and get the worst ass whooping of my life (FYI i still have my butt virginity it was a joke). I think i was a little bit sad about my loss or just embarrased that im such a horrible bar athelete so i decided to hang up my fooseball pants and try something different. Three of us got onto this snow mobile game and decided to give that a try. Thank heaven it was only a game because we all would have perished under my awful driving skills. So 15 shots down i decided to dance a little. Well stumble and get man handled. Thats about all i remember but according to the accounts of those wh were sober i was being pretty funny! Overall, my birthday was a success. I lasted until closing and only lost about an hour of my life to the blackout!

Until next time...........Drink on!

Colorado Springs Gay Parade

This past weekend we had the pleasure of attending Pride fest in Colorado Springs! I must say that although there were some glitches in our plan, we had lots of fun! So i suppose ill give you a little run down of the events that occured that day. To start the day off i was exactly on time. I mean to the minute i was there at 8:30. So we began our journey to get to the park by 10:00 with several minutes to spare we made it to the Springs. However my car decided to die right as im pulling into my hard to find parking spot! Wow well i guess thats a good sign! i said Fuck it and went to the park. So apparently Springs homos are sleepers. there was hardly anyone there. Jo and i decided to walk around and she got a "free massage" the creep rubbing her neck told her all kinds of odd things. Most notably though that she needed and orthopedical exam. Really Mr. PT i work for a chiropractor. and "Orthopedical" exam? what kind of idiot is this guy to not understand the jargon of his own. Now i googled ortopedical and its not a word so im not being super harsh! he said some other funny things but that was the funniest! After that it was a pretty fun day! Jo and i attended some queer church service in the park and Jo decided to do the cha cha to their music! it was mildly embarrasing! the funniest part of the entire day had to have been the zombies! Now Joelle has this weird phobia of zombies and it just so happened there were several people at pride dressed as the undead! the look of terror on her face and her valiant efforts at avoidance were classic! I wish everyone coulda seen it! after the gay weddings we decided to head out! Car started ok and three blocks down the road died! i managed to pull it into a shady spot and call for reinforcments! apparently my 2000 truck is out of warranty....weird right? but after Jo talked to her 11 year old sister realized she had AAA. we were towed home for free and i got it fixed the next day! whew what a day! overall it was pretty fun! just a word of caution....fiber is not sexy