Get Bent!

WARNING DARK SPOT POST:

I have said this a thousand times! Chicks are fucking evil. Women, girls, females, whatever you want to call them! The one woman in my life I have the most respect for is, and always will be my grandmother. I have found her out of all the women who have ever entered my life to be the least pain in the ass. (Both grandmas I should say) I talk a lot about the concept of being a "plan B." So, apparently everyone (but Josa) has one of these. Then along comes the awkward situation where you find yourself in none other than the plan B spot! AGAIN! Whew i thought i would never end up back in this spot. not that a part of me doesn't realize this is where I am standing, but a part of me wishes and hopes i am not! Schucks folks, I guess I resume my reluctant hesitant lifestyle where I just focus on me, Zoey, and the mountain of projects that lay before me. Staying busy gives me an easy out, an excuse, and most of all a safe place to just be. In this safe place i get to just be me, and do the wacky things i do without worrying about one single thing. I remember exactly what it feels like to get your heart broken, and the moment i start to feel even an ounce of that pain again, I'm out! Fucking peace, I cant and WONT do this again. I'm not saying that it will NEVER happen again, but for the time being, there isn't a chick in the world who could bring me down! At this point in my life, i just cant imagine being broken and weepy. Not because that's "weak" or anything of the sort, but because I don't have time for it! I don't have time to mope around or worry about my "feelings" or someone Else's!

So this is more of a vent post than anything else. I have found some relief in writing it all out and watching it play out letter by letter. I wonder why i don't do this more often. I used to have an email pal back in the day that i would tell my darkest secrets to (Hi if you're reading), but time changes things, people get older and busy, and i am not exempt from that. Sure does feel nice to just write it out and let it be. Even if i delete this post before publishing it, its gone. Emotions for me are like big rocks i keep in my pocket. They weigh me down and make me move slower. I GOTS to keep going, keep moving, keep fighting, keep doing what I do to survive. I need sleep, water, redbull, and Z. Those are my essentials! So now that i have gotten this out, I suppose i should apologize for the negative vibes I've been spewing out all over Pueblo today! I hate being that person! I am allowed though to have those moments. I am thankful i have super fucking awesome friends who just deal with me, let me vent, and tell me I'm not being irrational or grumpy! So thanks to you if you re reading this for helping me get some of those big rocks out of my pocket today! Tomorrow is a brand new day, and i think if i get to sleep at a decent hour......ill be freaking ready! So goodnight to you readers, or would be readers if i ever actually told anyone this existed! Sometimes its best to be anonymous! But that's just not me! so goodnight moon, goodnight you......

Spray tans and politicians

Personal opinion here: I think if you don't want to look like a total "D-Bag" you shouldn't spray tan! And who does this guy Boehner think he is?! He cries NON STOP so i hope he tans at a waterproof salon because he would look silly with white lines running down his face! Every time i see this man i think about that dang button that has his face on it, crying saying "We'll give you something to cry about! -The 99%" And it just makes me laugh! I have a whole bunch of those buttons so they are everywhere i go! Awkwardly enough, his face is orange in that too. I don't think the pun was intended because its SEIU colors but it still just cracks me up! I am also pleased to see Hillary Clinton wearing a head band! It looked much nicer than her normal hair style, but gosh she looked so tired! I think maybe we should start a nap time in DC. Lord knows when i was there i needed it! I can always use a good nap though! MAYBE (that's in caps because i just got really excited!!!) we can institute nap time for EVERYONE! aside from lunch hour! That's when grown ups have to pay bills and do grownup things! Like 2pm is nap time nation wide! Sheesh i should write Hillary Clinton and tell her this! She has more pull with the big man than i do! That is all for now....nap time

Wow!

I totally forgot what the name of my blog was! Now why on earth would i choose Chicken Mole? I was going through some phase in my life in 2008, so here i sit 4 years later still writing about the same things. I have a progressive blog training tomorrow so i figured i would get my good ol blog up and running again. What to talk about......There are tons of things going on in my life at the current moment. I will be leaving for Las Vegas NV on Sunday and staying till Thursday, leaving there to head to Los Angelas CA and returning the following Sunday! Thats a long time to be away but Z is in good hands :) I will be doing the train the trainer program for Steweards in Action through AFSCME.

Life is pretty mundane these days! It has its moments where it is totally awesome, but really getting older and growing up isnt all its cracked up to be. I live in a constant state of sleepyness! I just troll around the earth with a red bull and a yawn! REally though i take lots of photos so its all good! Things in my life are going exactly the way i want them to be going! Love life is non exisistent, but i have a pretty neat little social life and a great group of friends! Who needs love anyway??? Ill get back to that subject later! For now thats the update.....